I took acid today, I felt alive. I don't have much to add to this other than that, I'm still high on acid. I drank beer last night
I don't know why I think it'll change. Psychedelics won't change who I am capable of becoming, I don't know what they do for me other than help me creatively. I didn't feel alot before them. It took me weeks to process emotional events instead of it appearing rapidly like with most people.
I remember things I shouldn't, and I'd like to not feel when I remember them.
I wrote this on 5-13-25, however I will label this 5-9-25 because I don't want to rename this file. My other internet projects are far more transgressive than this would ever turn into, I'd like to keep it that way. I think people need some kind of release of edgier or darker ideas that are rejected in polite society. This isn't to say I, the drug addled alcoholic, endorse any kind of DEGENERATE behaviour, however I feel like people should be able to say whatever is funny. I don't want to isolate anyone from being able to enjoy the kind of stuff I write about here, so I keep transgressions to a societally 'acceptable' minimum. I waste alot of time on my phone, if I were able to transfer my phone into an AI inhabiting a human-esque robot, I would probably have to shoot it in the head with a 12 gauge sawed off. In gothic/depressing culture, which I prescribe my website to inhabit, is the use of metaphorical or proverbial violence still cool? I really hope so because that 12 gauge comment is gonna be AWKWARD in a few years when I find out they don't like that kind of stuff. The violence in my website is benign, I don't want to hurt anyone ;>. But seriously, I don't want to hurt anyone ;). Actually I don't want to, I don't think violence is anything more than entertainment in combat sports ;). I'm not typing those winky-faces, I seriously don't think hurting other people is okay ;3. That last one was weird, I haven't seen a three smiley face in a while, kind of weird. It didn't do it that time, I think I have to mention disliking ^u^ violence or something. I have never seen that before. Seriously though I don't condone any kind of violence, It's far too negative to be wishing death on anyone, I have my own issues I care more about then to be violent about some political or social problem ;^). The last one has a nose, that's kind of cool.