"please don't...leave...without telling me, okay?"

This post is being made a day before its due date, I had quite the affinity and skill for turning in late work. My teachers/professors always fell for my use of big words or unique philosophical topics.

"Why does it even matter? I'll be gone, telling you won't bring you closure."

I always enjoyed throwing away the topic of any given essay and writing whatever I wanted that was tangentally related to the assinged subject, I feel like writing in school could be more mentally productive if abstraction was permissable. My best writing is dealing with the abstract and obscure.

"I...don't know, I just need to know."

I don't like restriction, I think it builds up pressure just as containment does with any kind of reaction. Rules should be tested, if not fully broken, atleast once.

" I'm not gonna tell anyone, I don't want you to try and stop me if I do try to."

I knew a kid in highschool who would freak out over breaking any kind of rules, I bet his household was coddling and annoying. I resent my parents for being as controlling as I viewed them to be, but that's simply because I hate being told how to live.

"I won't try and stop you, just please tell me. You have to tell me, don't you love me enough to just do that?

I always did well on writing assignments and tests, just never homework. Why would I waste time doing paperwork when I can waste time with my parasitic hobbies that were actively destroying my mental health? Homework is for suckers.

"I do love you, I don't want to talk about this anymore, why did you even bring this up?

The marks on your arm are ne....I don't know why I typed that. Sometimes I include strange references or very esoteric metaphors in my writing. I say "my writing" as if it's professional, however I don't see a career in writing in my future. In my future, which will be told to me at a county fair via the crystal-ball tek (METH), I see starry skies and the starry soda being drank by multimillionaire jeff bezos who I would be hallucinating at the time. I think that means you have succeeded in live when you reach that point. I just noticed an error on my part, this transmission has been hijacked. Remember when people say "oh DERP" whenever they made a mistake? I'm having a moment like that right now, except I am too afraid of the criticism that would follow to say the dreaded words. I can't seem to delete whatever those messages are, in fact they look like gibberish to me. Anyone else who reads them should view them as gibberish as well. I feel so left out right now. I like house MD, it is a good show.

"We looked through your phone messages and we think it's best that, and I know this is gonna hurt to say, but we think it's best that you stop talking to this girl. We...we're gonna be moving you to a different enviornment. We've already talked to the Pastor, and he thinks it's a good idea to take away any...items... that could be... harmful."

Some things should just be forgotten and left alone, I'm pretty sure that's in a psychology text book somewhere.