We lie together, in more ways than one
She sticks by my side, until the cravings come
We crave eachother, but something more
We crave the needle, from alley's store
I was alone for a long time, the majority of my life, sometimes I reflect and wonder if God was sparing me from the kind of women I attract. I inject. The nothing washes over me, pure euphoria. The absolution of all of my sins condensed into one small frame of a movie I star in. The frame changes, my highlights are rolling. Thank GOD. I feel like I am finally breathing fresh air after years of ironwork in the small forgotten country of CHINA. I am nonsensical to put it to words. I find difficulty putting it to words. I am almost asleep, it is on its way.
I see the needles everywhere now. It's been hours since the comedown, every object I look at reminds me of it. I meet her shortly after, her bruises are bigger this time around, occupational hazard. Soon we'll do it together again. To be completely honest, I have been hating her every moment after we last did it togeter. It's a sense of clarity like no other, I hate her because of what she has to do to provide for us, I hate her because I hate she is the one who has the connections. Only she can be trusted to buy and pick up, I hate her. She's ruining every aspect of my potential. Only she can pick it up from them, that is clear. I'm too clean looking to be trusted. I haven't been fired yet, I work in construction. I'm one accident or call off away from firing, then I'll be fully dependent on that bitch. I hate this, I hate that I was brought into this lifestyle. It was all cozy before that BITCH made me do it. I mean she practically forced me, what else was I going to do? I'm going to lose everything. I make 80k a year before taxes, my boss has been repromanding me every minute I am at my desk. All of my drafts seem like bullshit to him, and I can't even decipher schematics I'VE written some days. She's ruining me, I can't do anything but scream.
The bliss, she's beside me. I love her more than anything, she's provided it to me out of love, she saw I was sick. I misunderstood her, she does what she has to. Even with my income I can't support our habbit, with alot of it going to my ex wife and our son I can't afford to shoot this shit up practically every day, the economy is rough. She's only got a little amount tonight, just over a gram, but it suffices. I feel euphoric, I can get through this, with her and her alone. Her body is just physical, she never sells her emotions. Even if she did, it would be for us. I would understand.
Well uhm...hello there! I am transmitting from my antennas, yes those!, directly to HTML format on the website IT is being hosted on!. I have absolutely no idea where it will end up, its more of a throw at the wall see what sticks kind of thing, but I am positive it will end up somewhere!. I am sure this transmission will reach who I need it to. R**** needs to hear all of this! She's back! Now, you may be asking "well who in the hell is 'she' exactly? A being capable of coital relation? If so I am indeed excited, however if it deviates from this course I shall be quite upset, or even possibly indifferent!" but ask no longer! I have managed to revive her! You know who her is! You have know! Do you! Oh wait....this is a one way transmission. That kind of makes asking questions useless. Anyway, she's risen from the dead! I know you didn't ask for this, but I can tell it's what you needed. She's currently a mile outside of town! Likely confused and walking towards *** ***** as we speak! I hope this warning reaches you before she does, I think you may be mad if you find out before. Anyways, I am rambling!! I hope you are doing well, I also hope I didn't mess up whatever page I hijacked too badly, that would suck. Not suck for me, but for who, or optionally whom,-ever's page I had taken over! End TX, loop until RX.